[Most Recent Entries]
Below are the 19 most recent journal entries recorded in
|Sunday, July 6th, 2008|
The famous intro post!
(crossposted-ish elsewhere, sorry if thats naughty!)
Well, I've decided to plump on here to get a few things off my chest and maybe some help/support with girly-guy issues (both giving and receiving). I'm currently 31 and, having got to a comfortable place in my life am trying to gradually get back to the state when I was happiest - from 16 to 19 I was a dyed-in-the-wool femboi; hotpants, stretch tops, fabulous legs, well conditioned hair ... you get the idea. Then, in my second year of Uni in Manchester I was attacked.
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|Thursday, April 17th, 2008|
Female in a male wrapping
I don't feel like I really fit the standard definition of TS, but I'm a bio guy who has always felt to some degree he was supposed to have been a girl. I used to dress quite a bit, and I've dated both mtf and ftm people, but I'm deeeeep in the closet about my own gender issues right now (married, kid, beard, everything)
I'm seriously considering hormones while maintaining my outward male identity for now... I want the curves and the change in mentality, even if I keep it under my clothes for now.
|Friday, March 28th, 2008|
New around here, and I just want to tell a little bit about myself...
Hi, my name is AdriMeg, and I just signed up to LiveJournal last weekend. I am a 31-year-old bigendered, bio-male gynephile. I've known since about the age of 3 that I was not just a boy, or just a girl, but that I was both (at least, deep down I did). I found out about this community (and, in fact, LiveJournal in general) by Googling the word 'bigendered,' and here I am. I'm glad that there's a place where people like me can express themselves and be with others who understand and are accepting. I've been crossdressing (or, underdressing: only women's underwear and jeans that are not too girly except tight across the bottom) for about seven years now. I plan on buying more girl clothes when I get my economic stimulus check in May. I was never much into Bowie, the Cure, or any artists like that, but Marilyn Manson's Mechanical Animals is my all-time favorite "listen-when-you're-pissed-off-and-angry-at-the-world" album. I like how Marilyn presents himself and the lyrics in his songs. I also consider myself intergendered, and I will be posting in both the bigender AND intergender communities here on LiveJournal. As far as I understand it, intergendered means to be both a man and a woman simultaneously, yet the representation usually mixes together, and intergendered people might consider themselves to be neither man nor woman. Bigendered, on the other hand, seems to mean to be both a man and a woman, but the representation often switches back and forth. It's like the difference between a synthesis (intergendered) and a hybrid (bigendered), I guess. If I could call myself anything that describes my identity in the most comprehensive way possible, it would be "interbigendered." In fact, I made a little diagram in Photoshop that's a sort of 'gender map' for me personally, and I posted it here under the cut, along with a little explanation of what it means:
Well, thanks for reading. Feel free to leave comments or ask questions. Thanks.
-AdriMeg Current Mood: okay
|Monday, August 13th, 2007|
Any female-born intergendered individuals?
I believe the way to describe myself is intergendered. I am born with a female body, however I have felt for a good portion of my life that I am missing a penis that is supposed to be in addition to all my current genitalia, basically the clitoris would be quite a bit longer (yay, more clitty goodness) with urethral lengthening to give me a fully functional penis, with my vaginal cavity remaining (in full operability, as well.
Is there anyone else like me? I feel pretty alone, although affirmed in the TG community, just not really understood as much. Thanks for any comments. :)
|Friday, June 15th, 2007|
GenderQueer Revolution Coffeetalk, LA: Sunday, 6/24, 12-2 PM
GenderQueer Revolution Coffeetalk
Sustenance for your genderqueer, gender-gifted Self
Sunday, June 24, 12-2 PM
Cafe Tropical, 2900 W. Sunset Blvd.
Corner of Sunset and Parkman4th Sunday every month
Next Coffeetalks on 7/22, 8/26, 9/23, 10/28, 11/25( Read more...Collapse )
|Thursday, May 17th, 2007|
|Wednesday, March 14th, 2007|
I am FTM looking for transgendered people in Oklahoma to talk to. Please respond if you live in the area. I also made a group called transgender_ok.
|Tuesday, March 13th, 2007|
|Saturday, November 25th, 2006|
|Sunday, November 19th, 2006|
student in need of help!
Hi all! I'm new to this online community though not all that new to the New York City trans community. I'm a student at The New School and am writing my thesis on transgender safe space in Greenwich Village, particularly looking at hate crimes and police abuse. I'm doing my fieldwork interviews with advocacy groups, police, and individuals and would like to have more individual input. I have a short survey that I would love to have anyone fill out that identifies as trans and either lives or frequents NYC's The Village. If shouldn’t take more than about ten minutes to fill out the survey. If you’re willing to help, please comment or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. THANKS!
|Saturday, October 14th, 2006|
GenderQueer Revolution, the national organization dedicated to empowering people of all genders, helping people to embrace the gift of gender in their own lives and in the lives of others, supporting and cultivating genderqueer, gender-gifted individuals and communities, uniquely gender-gifted art, spirituality, research, and academics, and educating and building bridges across trans, gendered, queer, and non-queer communities and beyond....
...has a MySpace. Become a Friend to GQR today! For those of you who prefer connecting and staying informed through MySpace, becoming a MySpace Friend to GQR will enable you to stay current with GQR and genderqueer events, opportunities, updates, and news, and you just might make some friends with other gender-gifted, gender-fabulous people across the nation, maybe the world.
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|Wednesday, September 20th, 2006|
9/24: GenderQueer Revolution Monthly CoffeeTalk: Sunday, 9-24
The Los Angeles chapter of GQR meets monthly on the 4th Sunday of every month in the Silverlake area.
Remaining Coffeetalk dates for the rest of the year: September 24, October 22, November 26, break in December, resume January 28, 2007
To chat in real time with the folks at the LA Coffeetalk, find us online through Yahoo! Chat. Natasha (Yahoo ID: xiomberg) is waiting to include you in the discussion!
9/24 - GenderQueer Revolution Monthly CoffeeTalk: Sunday, September, 24
(Please distribute widely. Thank you.)
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|Monday, September 11th, 2006|
Coming Out Question - Sorry for blurriness, I'm sleepy.
Have any of you come out to your families? What were the results?
Reason I ask is that I'm thinking of coming out to my mother, and I'm wondering if it's worth it. I mean, it would be easy if I could say, "hey mum, I'm a man trapped in a woman's body!" but instead I'm stuck saying, "Hey mum, I'm a hermaphrodite/boy and girl/etc/thing! stuck in a woman's body!" and I'm really not sure if it's worth trying. I'm not sure if she'll understand it very well, and...bah.
I'm not planning surgery at this point and am still debating the possibility of hormones, so it's likely that at least in her ears (she's blind ;)) I won't change much. But I still feel stifled and closeted and that's why I'd like to come out - just not sure if it's worth it.
So, yes, I'd like to hear others' experiences if you feel inclined to share them.
|Monday, March 13th, 2006|
what can I say, I should have done this a long time ago. I wanted to post to communities I joined and introduced myself and meet some new ppl :).
My journal is friends only. Why? because, these are very private thoughts and I don't want just anyone having access to them.
First a little bit about me. I'm a late 20's girl living in florida. When I say girl, I mean that loosely, since I am, genetically a boy. I've been crossdressing and experimenting with my gender since I was 12 and am very much comfortable with the person I am. Although there are many times that I have wished to be a real girl, I know that the odds of that happening in this lifetime are slim so I've accepted the fact that inside I am 100% female. (and hell, sometimes on the outside I look 100% female :)
I'm going to use this journal as an outlet for the real me that I don't let anyone else see because its a very private part of myself that I do not want judged.
So to my friends who have added me before, you can stay if you wish, but you've been warned.
To friends that are adding me now, I welcome you :)
|Wednesday, January 11th, 2006|
GenderQueer Revolution Cabaret this Saturday
** VOLUNTEER OPPORTUNITY **
Seeking volunteers for before, during, and after on the day of the event to help with set-up, art arrangement, refreshments, ushering, lighting, sound, audio-visual equipment, and clean-up. FREE ADMISSION for volunteers. Please write to the email address below or (866) 792-9438 to sign up.
GenderQueer Revolution Cabaret Performance and Visual Art Exhibit (countdown to G.E.N.D.E.R.S.)
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|Thursday, September 22nd, 2005|
|Saturday, July 30th, 2005|
Intro and pics (X-posted)
Okay, today i did some more work with my hair... And i loved the results, which ended in me becoming a very eager camera slut... heh
So i thought i'd use the pics to inspire myself to write an introduction to the communities i joined recently.
I am a transgender/intergender/poligender androgynous biogirl, sometimes i identify as ftm (and think that perhaps its where i headed in the future, though right now i wouldnt feel comfortable living as a male 100% of the time). I hate being called a female, but every now and then i get very girly. When this happens, though, i feel most comfortable acting as an effeminate guy, rather than a girly girl (like it happened today and what led to the pictures). I am mostly attracted by females, but i love androgynes, ftm and mtf transexuals, and am very much pansexual. Perhaps the only exception would be very manly men, im not very attracted to those. But everything else, me likes.
I pass as male about 70% of the time, but mostly as an effeminate/youngish male. I pass about 30% of the time as neither or both (androgynous, which people find very confusing), and a very small percentage of the time as a very butch female. I am 20 years old, but most people think im a boy of about 14 or 15.
I took T for a few months two years ago to lower my voice and pass more as androgynous, and little by little i've been sliding more and more towards the male side. I am on T again now, and have been for about 6 months. I want to have a oopho/hysto as soon as possible, since the fact that my body is physically able to conceive and carry a child is, to my mind, an abherration. I am not meant to have children, or at least not bear them myself. I am also considering having top surgery because i dont feel these breasts belong to me. Luckily, they're small enough to be easy to conceal without binding often (gotta love sportsbras).
My gender changes every day, and sometimes even througout the day. I have very girly days and very manly days, and everything in between. I almost always lean towards the masculine side of the spectrum, from butch onwards, but most of the time im between butch and girly-man or boi. Sometimes, i feel like my sex should match my gender, and some days i find myself wishing that i had a penis. Some others i dont. So nothing is absolutely certain with me.
Other than that, im out to my close friends, im still very in the closet with my family, and in general i dont comment about my gender or sexuality unless people ask, i basically let them draw their own conclusions, which makes for a very interesting variety of ideas.
Umm... Oh, and i am mexican, live in Mexico City, and study Veterinary Medicine.
Ah, and, silly me, forgot to say my name. I am MishAngel, or Misha, or Angel, each name represents a side of my genders, Misha represents the female side and Angel the male side. Im almost always MishAngel, but i simply go by Misha for short. But all three names are okay with me (well, i picked them, after all..)
Piccies under the ( cut...Collapse )
Enjoy! (Its not often that i take good pics of myself...)
X-posted in _hmm
. (I apologize if im not meant to xpost so much, i just wanted to intro myself in all communities now rather than continuing to stalk without an introduction...)
|Tuesday, April 6th, 2004|
all this fuss about something i can't even define. the last while i've been looking at society, looking inside myself and trying to figure out what gender even *is.* i thought it might help me along the way to finding out what mine is.
"the way culture expects the sexes to behave" --- does that mean two "masculine" people of different cultures have different genders? perhaps.
or maybe it's something other than that. i havn't come to a satisfying conclusion.
i've gone through stages of claiming i have no gender. i think that's wrong, though. i *feel* like i have a gender, i just don't feel like that gender is particularly well-described by masculine or feminine. certain aspects of it are, i guess.
but if there are so many genders, what does/should gender have to do with physical sex? should they be completely unlinked?
i'll write more as words come for it.
|Monday, March 29th, 2004|
Since I didn't get to ramble on -c natan about this...
...I'll post here :)
Apologies in advance--I'm sure I'm going to end up repeating some things that were said over zephyr for the sake of context and general flow...
I've always felt that social expectations and stereotypes for female and male behavoir were terribly artificial and only served to unnecessarily divide people and obscure social interactions. I'm much more comfortable around people who aren't trying hard to be male or female and who are just...people. Much simpler and more logical. I feel like that's what happens when people didn't let societal expectations define their character and just live
I'm an odd mix of characteristics myself. I'm not a tomboy, but I'm not distinctly feminine either--I've always thought of myself as a person first. My stubborn idealism defines me more than anything else. Maybe that wonder and desire to dream makes me childlike, and because children don't have a distinct sense of gender, neither do I. It's not that I've been actively rebelling against stereotypes; it's just that my self-identity formed independent to these exaggerations over the years. For a long time I thought no one could ever live out these stereotypes, but...well...sure, such people do exist and are a little disturbing at times. (I think my naivete stemmed from the fact that I've always read more fiction, so I saw all books and movies as fiction in general, never fully trusting their takes on reality but rather latching onto broader concepts and ideas. I figured any exaggerated stereotypes were meant to make a literary point rather than faithfully depict human behavoir.)
Another thing that always bothered me is how society makes such a big deal out of the difference between genders--ie the whole "women will never understand men" and vice versa. I'd say other people are hard to understand because they're outside of your own mind, and because it's hard to understand oneself in the first place. There is no need to blame gender for the gap in understanding--that's just an excuse to stop trying. I feel about this issue the same way I feel about the existence of free will; it's sort of a moot question, because in order to function in life you have to operate as though it's true. You must assume free will exists, and, likewise, you have to operate as though it is possible to understand others to some arbitrary degree.